11 Oct 2011
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38 weeks Pregnant and a Bad Mom!

October 11, 2011 No Comments

Being pregnant  38 weeks pregnant and having a toddler around is more difficult than I thought it would be. I am SO tired and I have no energy to play with her like I should and I feel so bad. I have to force myself and when I actually do play with her its only for about 5-10 mins and I’m done. The weird thing is that my nesting has kicked in and I have energy for that and that’s about it. I love being a S.A.H.M but right now at this very moment I feel like the worse mommy in the world. She wants my time but I’m 2 weeks away from having her sister and I am TIRED! Tired of being pregnant, Tired of not being able to lay on my belly at night while I sleep, Tired of eating ALL the time, Tired of going to the bathroom 6 times a night (at least that’s what it seems like), Tired of not being able to have crazy sex with my husband, Tired, tired, tired, tired….. I’m not complaining but I’m just tired! However, I am READY to meet baby Mercy…. I just want to hold her and kiss her:-) 

I wish Madison could understand what mommy is going through but I know she doesn’t;-( It’s just really hard for me right now… She has really been a trooper b/c she has been entertaining herself for the most part but I just miss our time together. I normally just sit in the bed all day and watch reruns of Law & Order SVU or Criminal Minds, read blogs, or play spider solitaire. 
I’m just ready to get back to my old self even though I think I may miss being pregnant and I’m eager to meet the little one!
23 Sep 2011
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Those Contractions- Ouch!

September 23, 2011 No Comments

I was in pain all day on September 21, 2011 but wanted to wait to see if the pain would stop. It sort of felt like menstrual cramps so around 10:00 pm I decided to call the doctor so he could tell me what he wanted me to do. He immediately said go to L & D, so me and Mel hopped in the car and went to the hospital. I checked in and they took me to my triage room and checked me but my cervix was completely closed and I had not dilated one bit! However, the nurse stated that my contractions were 2-5 mins apart and they didn’t want me to go into preterm labor so they gave me some medicine to stop the contractions or should I say slow them down. They stopped for a while and came back and were now 7 mins apart so they gave me another shot to stop the contractions and an ultrasound, uti test, and some fluid because they also felt like I was dehydrated. Everything was fine and uti came back negative so they wanted to wait to see what would happen because they didn’t want to give me anymore medicine to stress the baby.

My babyshower is the 2nd of October so I told little Mercy to stay put until that’s over and then she can do what she wants b/c she’ll be full term then. It’s amazing how my body is preparing for the little one to come… I was induced with Madison so I have no idea what “going into labor felt like” I wanted that experience so I told my doctor ahead of time that I didn’t want to be induced and I wanted it to happen on its own.  With Madison I was leaking Amniotic Fluid so they took her at 37 1/2 weeks and she was 7 pds 5 oz, which was fine because she was full term and I just wanted the both of us to be safe.

While giving me the ultrasound the nurse stated that the baby was already 5 pds and 10 oz and that she was completely healthy so that put a huge smile on my face. I told them I just want her to be healthy and that whatever they needed to do I was willing to go with the flow. I was blessed enough to go home and not be induced. Hopefully, she stays in there at least until after the baby shower b/c I’ll be 37 weeks (full term) and b/c we can’t miss out on all the precious gifts:-) We were at the Hospital for about 16 hours until they discharged me. I’m still contracting but they are farther apart and they stated that when they get closer they want me to come back.

21 Sep 2011
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35 weeks & 5 more to go!!!!!

September 21, 2011 No Comments
Me at 35 weeks w/ Madison
(I’m normally prettier than this…lol)

I can’t believe I only have 5 weeks left until my actual due date which is October 26, 2011 and I’m ecstatic:-)
We will have a new addition to the family and it sort of creeps me out because I don’t know how its going to be with 2 children but I’m excited anyway. I’m ready for what’s going to come…. The other day (which was Sunday) I was having really bad cramps. It sort of felt like menstrual cramps, I mean it was bearable but I didn’t know what was going on because I didn’t experience cramping with Madison and my female parts were throbbing so I called the doctor that following Monday. I went to see him on Monday afternoon so he could check me and he said that my cervix was completely closed and that I had not dilated, which was good news! I don’t want to have Mercy before 37 weeks so I was happy about that but I think she’s still going to come before her expected arrival. I’m just so ready to hold my little girl and I can’t wait to see her precious face.

How was the transition of having 1 child to having 2 children?

17 Sep 2011
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My Decision, Your Decision, Who Cares!!!!

September 17, 2011 No Comments

When it comes to breastfeeding people become so critical with a decision that is up to me to make. I get so aggravated when people ask how long I breastfeed Madison or am I going to breastfeed this baby. Last night was one of those nights that I just wanted to go off on someone because the question was asked and it sort of bothered me.

My cousin and his wife had their baby boy on Thursday so we went Thursday night and last night to see the baby. Last night, a close family friend was there and she asked if I breastfeed Maddie and I said yes for 3 months (I also explained why I had to stop due to a lot of complications I was having) and she said that’s it? I was like yes and she chuckled and told me how long she breastfeed her 2 kids (who…. I won’t go there) Lol… Maybe I’m overreacting but I had to change the subject real quick because I felt myself getting an attitude. My opinion is that if you decide to breastfeed for however long you want and if you decide not to breastfeed at all that’s perfectly fine because that’s your decision.

People really get me sometimes…..

However, I am going to try and breastfeed the little one that’s on the way and I hope she latches on properly so I can continue to do it and if she doesn’t oh well. She will still be healthy and smart. Regardless, of what people say the decision is mine and it’s all good.

16 Sep 2011
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The nerves are kicking in

September 16, 2011 No Comments

I didn’t feel like I would feel this way but for the past few weeks as time draws closer for the baby to come, I keep getting nervous, wondering if she will be fine. I trust God and I believe everything will be alright but I’ve only had the usual blood work done, an ultrasound at 12 weeks, and an ultrasound at 20 weeks to find out the sex. Since my 20th week check up all my doctor does (who I absolutely love) is check the heartbeat and measure my tummy because he says she’s perfectly fine. I’m happy to know that but in the back of mind sometimes I just get nervous. I prayed this morning because I felt like I was thinking to much but I feel better.

Have you ever felt that way as time approached?

15 Sep 2011
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To all of the Mothers and Wives….. Be Encouraged!

September 15, 2011 No Comments

Be Encouraged my sisters…. I know its not easy being a mother and a wife! For me I think it might be one of the hardest jobs to have. For some of us we may not be the bread winners of the family but we are the cooks,  disciplinarian, maid, care-givers, doctor, story-teller (for nighttime with the kids), sex machine, baker, lover, and many more things but you get what I’m saying.

We’re ALL of these things and sometimes we get tired!!!! There are times when I want to just get in the car leave for a whole day without telling anyone where I am. I get frustrated, angry, and tired! I know people think we are superwoman/supermom but we are human and are trying to do the best we can and sometimes we want to feel appreciated. Trust me when I say that one little day we get a year is not enough.

I just want to encourage the mommies and wives out there to continue to do what you do best. It’s not easy and it is tiresome but we will make it.

*Love until you can’t love anymore

*Smile when you want to roll your eyes and punch a whole in the wall

*Take a break and do something for yourself. This one is for me too b/c I rarely do this and as soon as I have this baby things will and are going to change around here, b/c I hardly get me time and that’s where a lot of my frustration comes in.

The title and roll we carry is not easy but we can and will make it…. Even when we don’t want to be let’s be the best mommies and wives we can be… Be Encouraged and let’s keep each other lifted up in prayer!

Lord,

Thank you for you love, your unconditional love. Thank you for being our provider and supplying all of our needs. Forgive us for all things known and unknown and help us to forgive ourselves for anything we’ve done… We offer ourselves to you first and then to our families asking that you will help us to love our spouses unconditionally. When good times come, help us to love. When bad times come, help us to love. Help us to be patient, kind-hearted, and to understand our husbands. Allow us Lord to be patient with our children and to be the mother’s you’ve called us to be. Help us to be the prayer warriors of our families to keep our families strong and together because we know that only you can do it. Give us understanding on how to be the Mothers and Wives that you would have us to be. We cast our cares upon you God for we know that only your yoke is easy and your burden is light. We give our cares to you when we’re stressed, we give our cares to you when were down, feeling lonely, or unloved. We love you lord for keeping us this far and we pray that you will continue to keep us and make and mold us into the women you want us to be. I pray that the spirit of depression, anxiety, and worry will not overtake us. Wrap us in your arms and comfort us when we feel alone and that no one cares. Give us the strength to make it even when we don’t feel like we can! You are God, our father, and our comfort and with you all things are possible. We know that you can mend the broken hearts so Lord any Mother or Wife who is broken and who need you at this very moment comfort them and heal them of every hurt and pain.  Help us to endure and help us to see what the future holds for us. In Jesus Name , Amen!

15 Sep 2011
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Things I actually Love about my Husband

September 15, 2011 No Comments

1.) He washes the dishes sometimes without me asking- Even though he may not do them the way I want, I won’t complain because he does it and some men don’t do that.

2.) He’s a praying man and he truly loves the Lord- I love this most of all because you rarely find men like that anymore.

3.) He’s very talented! He is amazing on the Acoustic Guitar….

4.) He is a very warm and kind person.

5.) Since the pregnancy he has taken care of me…. Maybe not all the time or exactly what I want him to do but if I want him to make me some cookies and milk, or get me a certain dish that I’m craving, or even deal with my whining when I don’t get my way. I must say he does do those things and I am grateful..

01 Sep 2011
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Think about what you’re Thinking about….

September 1, 2011 No Comments

I just finished Chapter 7 in Joyce Meyer’s “The Battlefield of the Mind” and I must say that this book has really been blessing me. This book is about winning the battle in our minds. Sometimes we let our minds and what we think about control who we are and it also at times affects our everyday life. I know I have…. I would get something in my mind and for the rest of the day (sometimes) it would really have me thinking negative or it may sometimes ruin my whole day. So far, this book has really been helping me in my spiritual walk with Christ and it is gradually helping me to change my way of thinking and I thought that since it blessed me I would like to be a blessing to someone else that may be going through tough times or who just need a little encouragement on today.

In Chapter 7 Think about what you’re Thinking about, it talks about how we should spend our time meditating on God’s word. The more time we spend meditating on the word, the more we will reap from the word. Mark 4:24 says that we should consider carefully what we hear. With the measure you use it, it will be measured to you and even more. This scripture is saying that whatever we put in to God’s word that’s what we will get out of it. Our flesh is lazy but we must endure and put our flesh under subjection and meditate on his word. We NEED the word of God and prayer to get us through this Christian walk. Let me be the first to say that it’s not easy and some days I’m on fire for God and I’m being consistent in reading my Bible and Praying and other days I don’t. I don’t want to be like that. I want to give God what’s due to him. A LOT of the time my mind would wonder and think about all sorts of stuff and would began to think negative about my life and I know now after reading Chapter 7 as to why that would happen. It would be because I was thinking negative thoughts instead of thinking on the Word of God. I would allow satan to control my mind and I wouldn’t totally give it to God. 
Change your thinking and realize that the reason we go through a lot is because we don’t think the right things. If we think negative things, things will be negative, if we think positive things, things will be positive. Sometimes our minds can be a mess and we’ll be thinking about stuff that doesn’t even make sense. We’ll dwell on it and allow that thing we’re thinking about to mess up our whole day. We must line our thinking up to God’s word. God’s word will get us through tough times and let me tell you its not easy. I get so upset at times and I don’t want to pray or meditate on God’s word, I just want to curse some people out and be mad but that’s not what God’s word would have us to do. He wants us to love and believe that he will get us through (Trust Him).  
In Psalms 143: 4-5 Talks about how David was depressed but he started to dwell on the works of God’s hand. He didn’t focus on the problem and he didn’t allow people to mess up his day but he meditated on God and he overcame depression. Joyce Meyer said it best….. Satan knows what makes us happy and what makes us miserable. When a person is full of wrong thoughts he is miserable. He (satan) wants us to think that what’s going on around us is what’s making us unhappy but its really what’s going on inside us (our thoughts) that’s making us miserable. Meaning if we change the way we think (even when its the hardest thing to do sometimes) our day will brighten up just because we changed our thoughts. 
I remember sometimes the more I thought about stuff other than what God would have me dwell on I would get more upset and more depressed. Its amazing what our minds will do to us. So, Think about what you’re thinking about and you may be able to locate some of your problems and be on your way to freedom very quickly because God doesn’t want our minds in bondage but he wants us to live, think, and breathe free in him. I really needed this because for the last couple of days I’ve been getting down about somethings marriage, motherhood, and  life but God showed me through Chapter 7 that I need to change my thoughts and give it to him, all of my cares I need to give it to him and allow him to fix it because me thinking about won’t change anything but me praying about it and casting my cares upon him will change the situation around me. I want to be in such peace and on one accord with God’s word that whatever is happening around me I will not let it affect my day and my mood.
Psalms 55:22 -Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall. 
Make today and everyday a great day. God Bless
29 Aug 2011
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A much needed Date Night….

August 29, 2011 No Comments

When you get married and have children sometimes you forget about “us” and the time you need with just you and him…. So, Madison stayed with her Nana (Thanks Mom) and me and my husband decided that we would do something last night so I was craving ribs and he took me to Sonny’s and then we went to a dollar movie to see the Hangover 2 which was hilarious. I told him this morning when I woke up that he has me sprung, we had been having a lot of tension between us and couldn’t figure out why we kept arguing ALL the time and I think we just needed that quality time without Madison. Trust me when I say that was all we needed:-)

Its a must that “we” husbands and wives make time for each other so we can keep the romance and the relationship alive. Its a MUST! You don’t want your marriage to start getting boring. Even if you have to rent a movie, cuddle and hold each other at night, cook together, etc. its imperative that we keep the romance alive. Prayer is also the key actually the #1 key to a successful marriage and then you add to the list but we must pray for our spouses and our marriage that God will sustain us in this time. Show your spouse some love and do something (surprisingly) different and watch what happens.

Let’s keep love alive and watch our marriages flourish into what God wants it to be!