No, I’m not pregnant but we have been thinking about it and we are strongly considering giving this thing a try after 7 years. We already have 2 girls. A soon to be 10 year old and a soon to be 7 year old so the thought of starting over gives me the shakes. I shouldn’t be nervous because I’ve done this twice already but I am. It’s been so long that I feel like I’ll be giving birth for the 1st time.
It’s been the 4 of us for so long, it seems as if that was going to be our fate but the talk of having a son has been the talk of in our house for months. I’d get excited about it and then I’d get nervous.
So many questions go through my mind like…
1.) Will it actually be a boy? The fact that we can’t determine the sex of the baby really makes me anxious because I really want to give my husband the boy he’s always wanted.
2.) Will I be a able to handle 3 kids???? I mean I am always late to stuff now. Yes, I know. I need to prioritize but can I actually handle another human and not lose my mind and be on time? lol
3.) Will I have enough love for each of them? I want to love them equally and I don’t want them to feel like this new baby will take their place. I know there is something about having a newborn in the house that makes me all mushy inside but I don’t want them to take it as mommy loving the new baby more than them.
4.) Can we actually afford another human?? lol… Babies/children are expensive!!
5.) Will I actually be able to get pregnant? Because it has been so long, I wonder if it will take me a long time to conceive or will it be as easy as it was to conceive with my girls.
I have so many questions that run through my mind but I literally have to calm myself down. Majority of my nerves are really happy thoughts but I do have that small percentage that makes me wonder about if this is really for us. I am excited about trying but extremely nervous and I really can’t put it into words. Although, I’m nervous I do feel at peace about it and I haven’t felt this way since we decided to have our youngest.
I found out today that one of my girlfriends is expecting her 3rd child and it literally gave me butterflies!! I even felt like maybe it was a sign from God that it was time for us to get things rolling over here. The two of us have actually talked about it briefly while we were out with some friends last year about having a 3rd baby and I never thought it would be the following year.
Anywho, I just wanted to share my thoughts on how I feel about having a 3rd baby and how I have been thinking about the whole thing because we have to make up our mind like right now and no later than next month because I would prefer if the baby was born in November or December. Wish us the best!!